I am pansexual. I will admit that right now.
I'm saying this to all of you, under a common name with a vague description to boot. I, in a sense, finally came out.
This doesn't mean I did the same with my friends and family. It does look hypocritical: I was able to admit one of my deepest secrets to complete strangers, but not to those closest to me. Does this mean I won't ever tell them? Of course I will. But not yet.
I am not ready to tell them yet. I cannot tell them right now, and that is okay. Only I will know when the time is right, and when it is then I will tell them. But now is not the time, and that’s completely fine.
If I am not ready emotionally and mentally for their reactions, then I know it will break me. If I’m not able to truly love who I am and gain the confidence to be myself, I know I will crumble. So here I stay, inside the closet for now. And that’s okay.
For whatever reason that you’re still in the closet, know that you are valid just as much as those that are out in the open. For those that are now out of said closet, I applaud you for being so brave; You wholeheartedly have my respect and support.
For those still hiding, I know one day you will be able to find your courage, and step out and be free. Until then, hold on for whatever reason you have, until you think you are ready.
Take all the time you need. It’s okay.
To those struggling to come out
From N, a genderqueer young adult who's still looking for the meaning of life. (@aeternafidea)
I feel you.
I myself haven't been fully out to my family. Alam ng mga kaibigan ko, ng mga kapatid ko, pero ang hirap pagdating sa magulang, sa iba pang miyembro ng pamilya.
But know that you don't need to rush.
Ikaw lang makakaalam kung kailan ka handa. At iyon ang sundin mo. Don't worry—whether you're out or not, the whole community will always be here to support you, to guide you, to love you wholeheartedly.
Yakap, mahal. Kakayanin din 'to.
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