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From Kristian Rivera



Battling in silence is one of the most difficult things you'll ever experience. It might be that you are in confusion right now, that you don't know how to deal with what you're feeling. You may feel like you're wrong for being like that and the thought of rejection, whether may it be through friends and family, is always shivering. 


Whenever you think of being like that, you'll feel shame, rejection, fear, guilt. You are unable to accept yourself. But who people think you are isn’t who you really are. You are so much more than you even know. 

I came out 3 years ago as hetero-flexible (under bisexuality) buy my parents up until now aren't still open about it. They don't want to talk about it. They are still confused and don't want me to end up like this. 


It's hard to deal with the situation knowing that the closest people in your heart are those who are taking advantage of your vulnerability as a person. 

Give people the space and the time to process everything. They have expectations of you and who you will be in the future. You’ve had time to process who you are. Now, give those you have come out to the space and time to process too. In the meantime, stay strong.


It's okay to hide if you feel like you're safe and well. Be true to yourself and follow your heart. There's nothing wrong with you. I tell you, as you go along the way, you'll meet people that are most understanding and supportive no matter what decisions you are going to make. Don't think of way too negative thoughts by the time of your coming out because after all, people may not be as bad as you think. 


I can still remember how my classmates way back then in junior high made fun of my confusion phase. I didn’t even know how to surpass the kind of struggle I'm facing since I was too scared to face reality. 


But when I got into senior high, I told myself that there's nothing to be ashamed of who I am. I embraced myself, and I always told myself that I don't need to gauge myself with people who aren't open enough. In every little way, I did my best to keep myself on track. And I guess it workedz I need to focus on my self-development rather than thinking of what others say. 


Do what makes you happy, whether may it be falling in love, climbing mountains, composing songs, doing dance covers and practicing on things you are passionate about. Your thoughts create your reality. If you want to change your reality, change your thoughts. Keep them positive. Keep them happy. What you believe, you become. Believe you can improve your life – and you will.


Honestly, I've encountered so much distress and anxieties. It's not going to be okay, but it is going to be much more than alright. Stay strong, you're doing good.

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